One, I've sunk back into a vicious cycle. Been looking at husband as if he were with-holding sex from me. Sigh. That's not going to work. It sinks my PMA and I treat him horribly because I'm full of resentment.
So.
If I were a guy and he were my wife, y'all would kick my butt for taking it personally that he doesn't want to make love more than once a week.
You'd tell me it's her body and that if I respect her, I'd be loving and accepting of her needs.
2> Somewhere along the way, my focus switched from what can I do for Husband/relationship...to what can I get from Husband/Relationship. Another PMA sinker and vicious cycle.
Time to refocus.
and finally,
3> I've been looking to husband to affirm to me that I'm a woman, whole and attractive.
It's not his job to affirm this for me. I have to believe it for myself.
There is plenty I can do to show myself that I am beautiful, passionate, and full of joy. Little things, like painting my toenails, paying attention to my outfits, taking bubble baths. Etc.
