I had a good talk with a friend last night, which was otherwise a pretty rough night. I relayed to her how good I've been feeling the last few weeks, thanks to the work I've been doing in IC and my belief that whatever's next for me relationship-wise will be so different. Her opinion was that given that something like finding WAW on Bumble was enough to completely throw me off that happiness and recovery, that's sign enough that the situation has crossed over into something that is damaging and actively holding me back, and therefore for my own good I need to address it.
Whether I ask the question or I don't, the answer probably doesn't change. But I also don't want to get D. Am I a fool for clinging on to whatever hope I have? I feel I know the answer: detach, focus on you, and if there is going to be some big change, it's going to have to come from a change of heart on her side, for which there is no timeline. It's just so hard for me to detach when I'm clinging on to hope.
