H stopped by and dropped off some food he made. That’s his thing for the last few weeks - cooking at his place and bringing food over in containers.
When he brought up visiting his parents again, (so far I haven’t explicitly said I wouldn’t go, instead I told him he can take the kids to visit them) he asked me ,”so I guess you don’t want to go?” I said it very matter of factly, “No, I don’t.”
The rest of our little interaction was normal. He asked if the food he made few days ago was good and I commented that it was good. Then as the kids and I are finishing up a movie while eating dinner, he left abruptly without saying goodbye.
The next few hours I found myself back in familiar territory - asking myself all these Qs: Was I being too rough by saying I don’t want to go visit his parents? Did I hurt his feelings? Should I text him and clarify that I do want to see his parents but I just don’t feel comfortable playing house with him? Did I put up too much of a front that it came off as aloofness? Is he warming up by bringing food all the time, but I’m pushing him away?
Well, in the end I stopped myself from texting him to explain anything further. I just know it wouldn’t help.
Maybe it doesn’t matter much in the grand scheme of things. I need some validation here...I hope I did/said the right thing??
