I can’t control her or her decisions. Since 2017 I read more than a dozen, probably closer to 2 dozen books on marriage. We’ve been in and out of marriage counseling for three years.
I think at this point I’m trying to develop myself and find a way to make peace with something I can’t control. I’m trying to make peace with letting go. And I’m working to really know myself, to understand my value as a person, and realize that I’ll be okay. Your life situation is not your life.
At this point I guess I’m battling for myself. If that saves my marriage, so be it. If it doesn’t, I can say I tried everything and truly gave it my all.
