It’s been 260 days since my wife and I have made love, 250 since she asked for a separation she didn’t follow through on while she debated divorcing me, 103 since she said she wanted a divorce and scheduled mediation, 83 days since our first and so far the last mediation session, and 42 days since we last spoke about divorce.
Because of covid all of our mediation sessions were canceled, otherwise we would have filed by now. We haven’t talked about any of this since 42 days ago; life just continues like normal except their is no affection. We sleep in the same bed, make meals together, put the kids to bed, and after that sit on the porch with a nightcap, talk, and watch the stars. A week ago i had done a bunch of work around the house and for the first time in 100 days she rolled over to say thank you as we went to sleep and gave me a kiss.
I can’t tell you how tired and worn out I am continuing to battle for this marriage. It is so freaking hard. I just want her to say she’s either in or out. I just want to move on in one direction or the other.
