Thanks May. Really struggling to control the urge to ask him if we can talk. I feel like I need closure. This has been going on so long. I don’t want to D but right now I see no change in his willingness to recommit. He makes a few noises and then runs away because it doesn’t feel right. And then hangs on and won’t let go. I know he’s in IC but that also frightens me. I just don’t know how much longer I can handle the uncertainty
M:49 H:49 T:20 M:18 D:16 D:14
EA: Feb 2019-May 2020 Separated: Mar-early Aug 2020 H asked to reconcile: Jun 2020 EA relapse: Oct/Nov 2020 Recon #2: since Nov 2020