I’ve been a way for a while as nothing much has really been happening with lockdown and everything. It’s certainly proving to be an interesting experience and I have been impressed with H willingness to help with childcare and homeschooling. So far it has worked well and he’s been fairly cooperative which has been something of a relief. I had to laugh when he used lockdown as a chance to start spending his day with D at mine again rather than having her go to his. In the Uk parents who are separated are allowed to collect their children from one home and take them straight to theirs but H insisted that he felt it was to risky and he should spend the day at mine. Every time I’ve managed to get him to start spending his day with D at his he seems to soon find a reason to come back. It’s been ok having him around and we have some nice family moments but I’ve noticed something recently and it’s certainly becoming more noticeable. If we are having a fun moment with jokes and laughter either as a family or even in text messages H will happily join in but he will suddenly bolt as fast as possible and shut it down. He’ll either reply with a jokey comment one minute and then reply with something like stop now. Or he’ll try to find an excuse to leave the situation suddenly. I’m wondering if it’s to much for him to deal with or if it’s some kind of reminder that perhaps things were possible not as bad as he remembered. Either that or he’s just his usual crazy self and I’m possibly best just ignoring it.
I will say one thing for lockdown, it’s certainly been a much needed break from the craziness and stress of the D. I really did need a break from it even if it is only for a short time.
