Just wanted to post a quick update. Difficult day emotionally/mentally yesterday as it is/was our anniversary. The next month or so is quite a stretch - April/May/June is when we wet, when we got married, when the BD and S happened, and her birthday all in a row.
All in all, I've been doing better. I've been working with a different IC and really doing some tough work regarding my fears of abandonment and addressing trauma from my childhood. For once in my life, I feel really confident that whatever relationship I'm in next will be very different as I've done a LOT of hard and sometimes painful work to understand how I contributed to my sitch.
As far as WAW and I, pretty much the same. We talk about every other week, usually under the pretense of something logistical, and it ends up being a hourlong conversation or so catching up on our lives, mostly more her talking and me validating and listening. It's all nice, but I'm careful not to let myself into the trap that those conversations are leading towards anything.
My personal game plan generally remains unchanged as well: focus on my business and my self-improvement, and do not try to control things I cannot control. She has made no movement towards D or legal separation, and I refuse to do so until the day I wake up and realize that is what I want. Until then, I focus on myself and what I need to do be the best version of myself I can be.
