HIgh Levels of Acceptance

[Lyrael]

Sage-
Thank you so much - knowing that I am not alone in what I am feeling helps immensely. I am more vulnerable to the fears when I am upset about other things, and I can kind of step back from myself right now and observe "I am agitated." I think I need to have something to eat, go outside and sit for awhile in the sunshine, and just breathe a little.

I imed my H, but didn't let myself get out of control, and I really think I can get through this episode. The hard thing is not to see my feelings as a sign that "something is happening" - you know emotional reasoning - if I feel it, it must be true.

I realize this will get easier as I go along - it stinks when it hits me in the midst of a very peaceful time, though. Sage, one of the things that most helped about you posting back to me is that I can give myself permission to just feel this way for now, without judging myself for it, but also without reacting to it any more than I have. I tend to beat myself up for my feelings sometime, and your posting that you have experienced similiar feelings is helping me not do that.

Myrrh