HIgh Levels of Acceptance

[sage]

Sage-
Just a question for you - in your earlier days of rebuilding with your H, did you ever have trouble with huge blasts of fear about IT happening again, that just left you parlyzed with terror?

Earlier days? Heck, it still happens NOW. It's nowhere near as frequent (thank goodness) but it is still occasionally present....I just do what you are starting to do...noticing how you are feeling, trying not to react to it adversely etc.

So, yah, it's normal. It's expected. It's been compared here to PTSD...that sometimes the feelings and emotions and fears just take over your body and mind and leave you as you described...

What helps? Some of the things we've talked about on your thread (meditation, keeping up PMA, exercise, good eating, etc)...reminding myself that I can take care of myself if necessary, made it thru the pain, etc.

If it helps at all...I'm amazed at how "far" I've come in terms of panic, fear, feelings, etc. There were days when I didn't think I'd ever feel ok again.

Oh...on your thread you posted "things not to do..." can I add a "thing TO do"???

It's exactly what you did...you noted your fear and as soon as you were able you were able to stop reacting to it...not saying it makes it go AWAY but you were able to name it and ride with it. Very good stuff.

Sage