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[Oceangl]

I honestly feel your pain. But here is a Q for you - do you value yourself? How do you view yourself through all of this? Does he really deserve you?

This is the question for me. No, I have not valued myself. I have let him set the tone, and been dependent on how he feels about me to calculate my worth. This is the biggest thing I am working on right now.

Sometimes I feel like I am too late on everything. Too many mistakes. But I also believe in God and try to remind myself that is the opposite of spiritual messages I've been given.

I'm trying to learn not to beat myself up.

That is a new question for me. Does he deserve me? It's like a completely new perspective. I read people's posts about being someone they are crazy to leave. And that's what I want to work on. For me.