Good progress! Small steps.

And in case you were in doubt - none of what you want is remotely unreasonable. Dream a bit bigger. A nice man who finds you interesting and laughs at your jokes and the rest is the BARE MINIMUM. If or when it happens for you just that will probably feel like amazing bounty after the nonsense that has been on offer from your H over the years. But you can expect even more than that, perhaps. How about a soul mate?

I blame H sometimes for when things go wrong for me that aren't anything to do with him. I'm cherishing quite a bit of resentment at the moment for me having to be a SAHM when I don't want to be, and H being able to get out and about and carry on his working life as usual. Even though he's doing all he can in the house and with the kids, and he hasn't chosen for my workplace to close.

I'm going to make a list of things I want to do after lockdown too - things nothing to do with my marriage, but just for me and perhaps me and the kids, who need some fun time and not just 'mum running homeschool' time.