Anyway, in the beginning I made all the mistakes. I had no help, I didn't know anything about this resource. I only found this board about two months ago. So it's frustrating, but it is what it is.
It's never too late to stop making those mistakes. Here you are, I'm sure you will get better at it.
Originally Posted by Oceangl
He feels like he tried hard before. He was frustrated because I didn't heal fast enough. I am a reminder of a time he doesn't want to remember.
ugh. He was frustrated that you didn't heal fast enough?!?! What did he expect??
Originally Posted by Oceangl
I'm having a hard time now because i am so tired. During his two year affair he wasn't nice and she could do no wrong. And then these past few years... i have put up with being devalued for so long. Really, I've allowed it. Part of me wants him to hit the road. The other part of me that can't stand the thought of my family being split up, that values family, and also believes we could be happy doesn't know what to do.
I honestly feel your pain. But here is a Q for you - do you value yourself? How do you view yourself through all of this? Does he really deserve you?
