I took your advice and sat on it overnight. It became clear I had to reset a boundary. I wrote about it above. I agree he is frantic. I work very hard to not get sucked in emotionally. But, his voice is still a trigger for me. And even though I don’t want it to be anymore, it goes away when it’s ready to go away, you know? I can’t make that trigger disappear. Part of my panic before talking to him is I don’t know what triggers there will be. I try to prepare myself with visualization and meditation. That unexpected phone call didn’t let me prepare. That’s why I should not have answered. Sheesh. I feel for those who have to see their MLCers everyday. I don’t know how they find peace.
Thank you for your advice and support. I truly value it.
