Hi Cardinal- I did exactly as you suggested without having read your response first! Glad my instincts were right.
H has still not come home and is displaying angry monster behaviour from afar through text and email. My L sent a letter to his pointing out his inconsistent behaviour over the last 7 months with regards to settling on a separation date and let’s just say he didn’t react well. It’s been 5 days and I’ve chosen not to respond. He basically confirmed my speculation of his up and down behaviour towards me as him being “nice and amicable” it certainly not confused. I’m a little concerned what the new not nice behaviour will look like.
The most recent threat surrounds our finances again and includes canceling the credit cards. He’s creating a tonne of work for himself as all bills will have to be changed to new cards. Through this, I’ve realized I’ve been over paying for the house bills and will need to ask him again for the cc statements which he locked me out of seeing when all of this started. There is def money I’ve been contributing that is missing...and with the recent lockdown it’s become a significant amount.
The last few days I’ve been really struggling with compassion. Like what the f is he angry about!!??? I know it’s not about me but I’m the one that’s been blind sided, cheated on, treated like dog dirt, accused of awful things, all because he can’t express his feelings? Because he doesn’t know himself? Because he’s a workaholic. So he’d rather roll the dice and start over than talk to me!?
This monstering behaviour with a quick flip to complete normalcy is really weighing me. I know I shouldn’t care about what other people think...but I’m allowing it to sink my self esteem and rational thought when I hear or see him interacting with his family or friends as if everything is 100 % normal. First time since this began that I’m feeling angry and disgusted with his behaviour. I don’t want this....any of it but I definitely don’t want to start with the negative feels!
