HIgh Levels of Acceptance

[sage]

Hey Minnie,

The birthday celebration continues just awesome mentions from h about my "birthday season"

Was in class all day yesterday (friday) and all day today, too. It's a bummer because it looks like a beautiful day out there...but it's ok, too, because I'm racking up the credits! Must get to 7/9 and then I'm out of school for the rest of the summer!

Went to a movie last night (Stepford Wives -- funny -- I'd give it a B-) and then out for chinese food. Thursday I met h after class...he seemed drained, off, itchy butt, something? I don't know if he had something on his mind..I asked him offhandedly if he was feeling ok and he said "yes" but then gave me "are you" answer (with mild what, irritation?) that used to be so much more present...a good sign to Sage to back off!

since then he really seems to be trying hard to let me know he loves me, cares, is present, etc. I appreciate that so much but hope that my asking about how he was feeling wasn't interpreted by him as him needing to do more, etc...I worry that he'll wear himself out trying to be "on" for me....not what I want at all...It's just easier, less scary for me when I know if he's feeling as though he needs to back off a bit.

anyway, I'm babbling! Just trying to say that h doesn't have to always be up...and he doesn't even have to say "I need some space (whatever)"...need to stop personalizing!

Gotta run.

Sage