And then it was over.

[BlueSea]

Job -

"I have noticed that you have mentioned MLC several times...what makes you think he's having one? MLC's main ingredient is depression."

I was told by my counselor that H was WAS and MLC based on what I told him - he has also had a session with H and has not changed that but focuses more on the MLC part.

LH19 -

You want to get him out of the house as soon as possible. He’s cake eating right now and WS will eat cake until the cows come home.

I can not do this, I can not push him out - just reading that I go into full blown anxiety attack. This is just too much for me, honestly, I have no idea how folks get thru this.

Steve -
Thank you. Your words are spot on - I am deep in fear. I agree. I am just getting into an Olympic sized pool of pain and i know I have to swim it - but right now I just don't want to. I have no words any more, I just want to fold up and give up. I am sorry for the 'poor me' routine. I am going to let myself have today to cry and shake off the last remnants of denial that this is even happening. Know that I am reading the thread, I am listening. I am letting it lay on my brain, it will sink in.

AnotherStander - He wont hurt me. And if he did, at least it would be over.




H is taking his counseling call with the DB counselor as I type.
Please let this day end better than it started.