Yes, yesterday sucked!!!! Today the sun came up and its time to get on with things.
There is not to be a minute wasted. No more wasted time on why he texts what he does --- he is just trying to prove to himself he is a decent person... AND, the only people who need to prove they are decent are when they know deep down they are doing a terrible wrong.
I have nothing to prove. I did a terrible wrong too - but I owned it. I won't keep apologizing for it. I will rise above and through the work that I'm doing for myself I will be better. Everyone gets a little lazy and complacent... BUT, I was so there that I stopped caring about myself and in so doing that actually became I stopped caring about him. What a fool i was, but I'm a fool no more.
The best way for me to move forward is to care about myself. If I feel good about myself then I'm outwardly happy. I'm outgoing. I smile more. I exude energy. I'm cute. I'm sexy. I'm playful. I'm more flexible with what's thrown at me. <<<<< this is who I was when we dated and married. He hit the jackpot!!!! And, he knew it.
I accept that there will be good days and bad ones. I will be thrown off course by a random text. But, I will pick myself up and get back on the treadclimber. One day there will be a time he will look over his shoulder with regret and loss because there I am!!! That adventerous girl who was so full of herself she showed off her flirty stripped bra on the way to dinner that first night after knowing her for 10min AND you just couldn't keep your eyes off of her because she glowed!!!!
One day there will be a time he will look over his shoulder with regret and loss because there I am!!! That adventerous girl who was so full of herself she showed off her flirty stripped bra on the way to dinner that first night after knowing her for 10min AND you just couldn't keep your eyes off of her because she glowed!!!!