Quote: Things still seem wonderful here and your posts lately seem to have a relaxed feel to them.
I am wondering do you feel more relaxed?
In some ways I am feeling more relaxed...my work and school load are as heavy as always this week but I'm not feeling the need to run around like a chicken with my head cut off...not exactly sure WHY! (but I like it)
In another way, though, I'm actually feeling a bit stuck ... I find myself facing a couple of things right now (in my mind, I suppose) that I'm really struggling with...I feel like maybe these struggles are here to remind me again (and again and again) about dropping the rope, shedding ASSumptions, depersonalizing, etc. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel as though I'm struggling and stuck a bit in some places that I've been before and that's making me feel a bit more restless than I'd like. Honestly, though, I feel like this might be a good time for me to learn a lesson that's been plaguing me for years.
I know I'm being a bit cagey....not really trying to be, I suppose...but I think I need to focus more inward on this than outward right now. Let's just say that I'm trying to follow the advice I gave you yesterday about not beating yourself up for feeling how you're feeling...
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Had school last night...it went well. Got home sort of late and h was waiting on the back porch. Very cute to be "scared" a bit by my waiting hubby.
He sent me an email while I was at school (unfortunately I didn't get it because my laptop was dead). Not sure if it's his intention to ease my mind but it's nice when he does that since my school nights were "date night with ow" a LONG time back.
Had some good conversation with him last night. Nice to catch up on our days.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
