Glad to hear you are okay. I was concerned when you suddenly stopped posting.
Sorry your sitch hasn't improved. Keep working on valuing yourself. I'm struggling with the same issue - I seek validation from my husband. My self-worth seems to depend on how he feels about me. It's a struggle.....
It does seem like the daily battle. I try so hard to connect to myself, live in the present, value myself. If I think too much about the future I can easily get stuck in fear and despair. I keep reminding myself to take the power back in my life. Stop giving him so much power. Do I want him because I want him? Or do I want him because he doesn't want me?
I do okay for a few days in a row and then let my guard down and feel like I have to start all over again!
The future is always scary, because it is unknown. Just like through this pandemic. If I start wondering if I'll still have my job in a month, 6 months, a year, it will drive me nuts. So you know what I do? I make my present the best it can be, The future is out of my control except for what I do right now to secure it. The past is done and can't be changed. The future is unknown and subject to change. All you have is right now.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
