Not really anything new going on, just journaling a bit.

I'm pretty exhausted right now. A lot of it, is just a lack of sleep. I have been staying up pretty late (even as late as 3 am over the weekend), but not sleeping in any later. Staying up late has always been my natural tendency. Of course, as I got older and got stupid responsibilities, like a job, I've had to cut back. I used to try to go to bed around midnight, but lately, I've been up past 1 almost every night, and on the weekend until 2 or 3. Last night was the first night I got to bed "early" and that was probably just before 11:30. I did that because I was just completely drained yesterday.

It's not all sleep, though. There has of course been the stress of this entire marriage situation, and that's been weighing on me since October (probably longer as I had concerns about how things were going before that), the inability to see and doing things with friends, and more recently, the deaths of my grandmothers. I also have school stuff I'm working on, which if it was just something I had to do, wouldn't be an issue. However, it requires me to push my brain harder, both intellectually and creatively, so it's an added strain.

I haven't slept in at all, because I still have to go to work, and my W's job sent her back into the field for a few weeks, so she has to get up earlier, and so my daughter has to get up earlier, which means I'm awake earlier.

My wife has been angry and very cold with me since we discussed things concerning the divorce and she did not like the outcome. More than that, she just seems very unhappy in general. Her tone with our D often has just kind of a, "I don't care," feel to it. Like she's going through the motions.

I've been trying to continue to stay positive and upbeat, and still focusing losing weight, being there for my daughter, and doing things to better myself, as much as I can. I'm just tired.

I just want to close my eyes and sleep right now, but come tonight, around 10 pm, for whatever reason, I'll get a burst of energy and stay up late again.