That did make me feel better. It makes me feel better about a lot. Knowing that he is at least a little cognizant of what's really going on here. Knowing that I can be honest and he doesn't immediately lash out.
Hey... that made me really happy to read. That's great. I feel like it is so important to be able to be comfortable in your own home and having to constantly censor yourself just isn't healthy. It must feel like a huge weight is lifted. I think back to how I feel now in terms of connecting with my H and how we can talk about stuff vs a year ago, or even six months ago. The anxiety of needing to monitor my own responses, the constant pressure of not wanting to screw up, having to pour all my feelings into a journal or here rather than share them with the person I always thought I could share anything with... jeez. No wonder I couldn't sleep.
Anyway, I'm happy for you. I feel that is a big step. Of course he might be a d**k the next time or decide to say you're controlling or whatever just to regain his own narrative and control of the situation, but two steps forward, one step back is to be expected, right?
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing
