that was a bit of a read there. You put a lot of thought into it, I can tell that. Sometimes it's good to think everything through, but then you have to kind of leave it and there too and get on with your life while revisiting it to make sure you aren't falling back into old habits.
I would boil it down to some goals like:
1. Work on NGS 2. Gym and attitude 3. Fun (GAL)
You are a good dude and if you keep this up some lady is going to fall into your lap when you aren't even expecting it.
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