I totally get that point - of him being cold and aloof because when he is nice I have been very guilty of running with that to places I should not. It makes sense completely.
Please note I said I USED to want to see him frequently so he could walk away with positive emotions after our interaction rather than negative.
I don't now.
The fence work needs done. He still has more stuff at the house. He wants to come Wednesday.
I don't have the desire to see him.
I feel pretty even keeled about it. I have no anger at all. Sadness about the whole situation - rather than just him creeps in. Especially when its a night I'm not sleeping well. I don't allow it for long but I do allow it as part of letting it go. I'm at work at the moment and I'm not sad. I can say completely ambivalent. I have no desire to check my phone to see if he has texted. Not interested in anything he has to say about anything right now.
I've muted his texts. I've actually come close to blocking all calls and texts but we have unfinished business still. I have found more peace that I have muted his texts. Then rather than he interrupts my day randomly - I can check every 1-2 days to see if anything needs to be addressed on my time.
I feel good about the exercising I've been doing and I've set some new goals. I do what I want when I want. Once all his stuff is out I'll rearrange the garage. It's spring so good time... spring cleaning!!!!
