It's funny part of me wishes me dreams were like that. Maybe I'd start to hate for the affairs and stop caring but probably not. My dreams are always self damaging. Even before the BD I noticed I have more if them. Watching my wife die in various ways unable to save her because I was weak, slow, etc. Tonight it was simply I was Disneyland and was trying to get to her. I had ended up one place and she was with her family somewhere else. I moved like a snail and it work if was so exhausting to move at the pace. I could never make it to her. Anytime I got to where she last told me to come she was gone. I guess I feel like like I'll never be able to catch my wife again right now.
