Well that all sounds pretty positive other than you feeling blue. I think everyone I know is struggling right now, there is only so much virtual interaction you can have without burning out, and it is just not so fulfilling socialising online compared with in person. I do yoga videos with a couple of friends once a week, that is quite a nice thing to do, just talk on the phone while you are doing an activity together. I also go for runs and walks and text photos to friends and they do the same. Still, it's not the same. I'm hopeful they will ease lockdown so we can at least go socially distanced running or walking with a friend or two before too long. I'm glad you are financially secure right now, that must be reassuring. Great job stepping out of the triangle between your H and eldest, that is quite something!