Hi KC, I can see you are fighting so hard against your emotions and feelings. I really can relate to that pain. Keep thinking about you and your worth. You are doing so well with your exercise and looking after you physically. That takes mental strength. You are strong. You are also doing well mentally although you must be exhausted. What can you do to fill your mind with thoughts that aren’t focused on him? Read, do crosswords, find a good tv series? Do you have a mental challenge for everyday, some time where you can really erase him from your thoughts? I sense that even though you are doing the right things, he is constantly on your mind. You deserve to be valued, not exhausted by his negative energies. you deserve more for yourself . Sending you hugs xx


M:49 H:49
T:20 M:18
D:16 D:14

EA: Feb 2019-May 2020
Separated: Mar-early Aug 2020
H asked to reconcile: Jun 2020
EA relapse: Oct/Nov 2020
Recon #2: since Nov 2020