I doubt any of this will help as I probably learned it from you!
But this past weekend on mom and I's drive home from the state finals we were talking about my marriage.
My mom has been known to hold major grudges and she didn't like my first h and didn't speak to me for several years after I married him. She told me about the time she got to liking him I left him.
She told me that she has always liked David from the beginning. That was interesting to hear, as she didn't speak to him at first either. So I am guessing she meant after she started talking with him.
But I did want to be sure how she would feel about him if we turned our marriage around.
She said she was fine with David, likes him still but she just hopes he doesn't do this to me again if we turn the marriage around.
I told her, I didn't think he would, but if we did turn it around. That was something I wasn't going to watch for, expect, or hold against him. That I have spent enough of my life being unhappy and I intend to make the most of the rest of it. IF that includes David, I am going to make the most of that R. Remember trust is for yourself because it is how you want to live.
You already know you will be fine if it were to happen again, and I think it is time Ms. Sage was all the way out on the rope even if she has to cross to her h's side! Although I think he is on the rope as well.
I hope this made a bit of sense to you and didn't sound patronizing. I think it is all in the perspective. I am facing never having the chance to build what you have with your H with David and that makes me realize how I would want to live if I had the opportunity.
I know your brain keeps hanging onto this, but kick it! I KNOW you can.
Live your life to the full joyful potential that is there for you!!! Your future is bright, promising and beautiful.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
