It took me all day to get it... really let it sink it. When on the phone today I said "I'm working on it, I'm really working on it" He replied why now? Why now after 9yr [ok, the rewriting history should have clued me in] Then he said now was not a good time to talk because he was angry. He did not sleep well and power went out and his CPAP did not start back up. I did a 180 and didn't push him to talk further or press when would be a good time. I let it go. If he wanted to follow up it would be on him.
I thought he was feeling frustrated that it took me so long to get my crap together.
Nope... I realized he was disgusted with me. How dare I work on it now... why? It no longer matters. Took me all day to get it.
He never followed up later with text or call.... because I disgust him.
I will hold my head high on Sunday. I am beautiful and worthy... he walked out... he should be begging me to come back.
LH I have a year... once D is final I won't look back. To me D is the ultimate betrayal... I may have been a bit controlling and emotionally and physically absent in the last few months but I loved him and was a devoted partner.
I doubt there will be anymore texts or calls from him... I just need to make sure they stop on my end as well.
