Look who popped back in! I am so glad you returned and provided an update. You sound very well grounded and your life is moving along. Your son sounds like he's doing well.
Cali, don't be a stranger. Come back again and visit. Take care of yourself and your son. Stay safe.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.