I really enjoyed our walk yesterday. I'm glad you still want to do the marriage meetings and it does give me hope. I know you said that you've made up your mind that you want this separation and that changing your mind would not validate your feelings. I know I've screwed up and not been a loving husband, but I can make the changes you want. I can be the husband you need. It will take time for you to trust me again with your heart/feelings, but I'll be here and wait.
You've said a few times, why can we just end this and call it good? We've come to the end of this relationship. What I see is an end to the old relationship. The non communication, the lack of interest, that should definitely end. It wasn't healthy for you or me. So yes, that relationship should be converted to a new one, where we work on loving each other. Love is a choice, feelings ebb and flow, but love chooses to question the feelings and tell the other person, with grace, why that hurt.
I don't want this to end because I desperately love you. I love seeing you in the morning getting ready for the day. I love working on projects around the house with you. You excite me.
H (me): 48 W: 43 M: 23 T: 24 D:21, S:19, S:15 BD 2/2020 Still living together and going to MC
