I ended up asking for affection yesterday and, of course, he told me again he didn't love me. He cares for me like the old friend I was but he just doesn't feel it.
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Oh B. ((( ))) Of course it felt good to be held. Soaking in the moment. I remember those times. But, he's not wanting to give you what you want. I think it's time to consider changing the sleeping arrangements. He's still under the same roof, but if he's feeling like you're old friend, than that old friend can sleep alone. Right? I'm not sure of how to say it to him nicely, but maybe... "I think it would be best if we don't share the bed." ? I'm sure the others can come up with a better way to phrase it. But you get what I'm saying. And feel strong, empowered by this. YOU are taking control.
Originally Posted by Believe
I felt so bad after. I promised myself to detach and stop. But I just wanted to know if he has been lying about not seeing her or being in contact. I realize now that it doesn't matter if he is or not. He just isn't connected to any feelings of love for me at all.
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You are right in what you said. It doesn't matter if he is or not. The connection has changed between you. When you STOP yourself and say, "It doesn't matter", even if you have to say it a thousand times... it will eventually not matter. Over the last couple of days had this struggle over a stupid bag that belonged to H. And in the end, it did not matter. Whatever H is doing, you have no control over, but you do have control over what you do and how you handle yourself. Remember, when you get tempted to do something you probably shouldn't, STOP yourself and say, "It doesn't matter... it doesn't matter..." Or say another phrase, but STOP yourself. YOU will feel AMAZING when you stop yourself.
Sending you empowering YOU CAN DO THIS thoughts ((( )))
~Never Give Up ~ 2019 Mar BD June BD Dec Aow/xgf 2020 Jan he wants D Feb he flys2 ow Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn Apr he leaves for work until Nov Oct D FINAL 2020 Living MY Happiest Life Ever
