No big deal. Pick yourself up and heed the advice that is being given to you. You gotta believe that you deserve better, because you do. You are right where you are supposed to be. Where you go from here, is up to you. You have choices too.
Before you have the opportunity to work things out with your H, you have to completely let go(Drop the Rope). Even then, there are no guarantees. Your fear of letting go is paralyzing you. Fear is worse than reality.
The more you practice not responding, the less you'll respond, until you don't respond anymore. I have no doubt you'll get there. Head up, shoulders back.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa