He came by to repair an item for oldest kiddo and it was so so hard to resist going outside. I felt like I could just walk out and everything would be normal. But the logical side of me knows that is a fool’s game. Going outside would just be more painful because I’m not going to get what I am hoping for.
So I stayed in. And watched him drive away when he was done.
Attny is a smart step I know and I just have to work myself up to that step. I am a smart logical person and have the sense to know what anyone else in this situation should do unfortunately I can’t turn off the dumb emotional side of me that says “please stay! please don’t go!” Silly brain.
One day at a time.
I get that... all the time.
It was good that you didn't run out there. Let him wonder why you didn't. You have better things to do and a clearer mindset to get into.
I'm in the middle of my H moving out his things... I can't stand going into my closet and see his half all empty. But every day gets easier. I barely slept last night but the 2hr I did get was some weird dream involving my H and that he was not leaving OW. Oh... the mind can be horrible to us sometimes.
But, I'm focusing more on me - I'm working out and look amazing... another 10lbs and LOOK OUT!! I'm also reading and journalling... doing an online course.
What can you do? Even if its just taking a bubble bath... Do one thing that focuses on self care today.
