He came by to repair an item for oldest kiddo and it was so so hard to resist going outside. I felt like I could just walk out and everything would be normal. But the logical side of me knows that is a fool’s game. Going outside would just be more painful because I’m not going to get what I am hoping for.
So I stayed in. And watched him drive away when he was done.
Attny is a smart step I know and I just have to work myself up to that step. I am a smart logical person and have the sense to know what anyone else in this situation should do unfortunately I can’t turn off the dumb emotional side of me that says “please stay! please don’t go!” Silly brain.
