You do understand that every time you get a call or text from him it sends you spiraling down all over again? Yes? So why let it happen? You can put an end to that real quick.
THIS --- this is where I am at.
On days I don't hear from him it makes me sad/anxious. On days I hear from him it makes me anxious/hopeful. I do spin. Right now he is texting like mad over a document he needs for his mortgage. It truly is something only I can provide. I was busy last night and ignored all but 1 text. I am truly busy this am and cannot deal with his texts.
He opened up to say that this type of loan has been a nightmare to get through. I ignored.
More texts today. I get that he needs it. Its just not MY emergency. He tells me its not him asking for this but the bank... whatever... you are buying a house and leaving our M... not my circus/not my monkeys.
It is getting easier to ignore him most of the time and not scuttling about trying to please him.
I remind myself if the shoe was on the other foot and I needed him... what would his response be? I doubt he would put in the fraction of the work I am for me.... It is getting easier to think of him being gone. Not 100% there yet and still a work in progress.
