Day 34 of Covid LD ( and now in LD until June? ugh...)
~j~ Oh how I love a new thread when it's a new beginning! Feeling good today. I'm SO thankful for this forum. I woke up this morning thinking how nice it was to have a calm departure from 00. One that was driven by kindness, rather than the opposite. Imagine having to depart on rocky terms, regretting things that might have been said in the heat of the moment. The high road was traveled and I feel good.
Last night, (see previous thread for details) I dropped H off at the airport. It was a nice and normal goodbye. D3 is use to her dad going away to work for long periods, so she'll be okay. No concept of time at this age really, especially during these times.
I was surprised by the hugs 00 gave me at the airport, but after all, we are still friends. That's why I reached out to him first, at the house, when I saw he was emotional & panicked. I felt he needed it and he took it. I know he's nervous, having to travel (not a direct flight either), and nervous going back to work after he does 14 days of quarantine.
When I got home from the airport, I had a long talk with Step-MIL. She's knows H very well, and she shares things with me. I shared with her the status of our D paperwork. She was surprised, but after talking about it more, we definitely believe 00 knew exactly what he was doing, by not completing it. And now he's got no way to complete this paperwork, as it has to be done with a notary, and he'll be gone for 7 months. He had the opportunity to complete it before he left; he claims they contacted him, but he refused to go at the time.. nervous to be in contact with people? Even so, he HAD the opportunity to finish what he SO badly seemed to want. Any way. There has been zero talk regarding this since.
This morning, I had many text msgs on my phone from 00. I had asked him to keep us updated, so we'd know he got to his destination okay. We chatted for a bit, via msg app. He's nervous and has a huge headache...no doubt! Good thing he's got 14 days to recover. No drinking while at work/sea. I ended the conversation with, "we're always here for you"... 00: "Thank you. Let me know if you need anything".
WOW... so nice to use a keyboard again!
Have a great day everyone. I hope this positive momentum continues. It's up to me.
~Never Give Up ~ 2019 Mar BD June BD Dec Aow/xgf 2020 Jan he wants D Feb he flys2 ow Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn Apr he leaves for work until Nov Oct D FINAL 2020 Living MY Happiest Life Ever
