Had a super good nights sleep last night... felt great.
So why very first thing this morning before I got out of bed was I thinking about him? UGH... so frustrating.
I spent all last night - telling myself I'm beautiful (recent selfie posted on FB - no filters needed!, had people telling me I looked 20yr younger than I am!!), I'm smart, I'm generous, I'm devoted to my career, I'm intelligent, I'm worthy, I'm kind, I'm valuable. And, I believe all these things about me.
So why am I focused on his text from yesterday - that H has to go out and get new atty and he has to start all over.
Why, do I want to text him back ---- Or we could try something else [like work on the M]
I know this is WRONG.
He continued to text. Said if I could drop the financial order he would really appreciate it. Followed by am I working Saturday. Then he could come Sunday?
I responded much later in the day with let me think about it and get back to you later - had plans this weekend. He responded with OK.
I only addressed the business stuff of his texts about getting more of his things. Really could use a break this weekend. Would it be wrong to post pone 1 week so I could focus on my needs this weekend? Nothing at the house is of urgent need for him.
Well don't know how many woman go out and do fence work with a full on smokey eye... but this girl is going too.
I will get through this day. I am stronger than this.
