~j~ We made it. I can't believe I doubted myself, my strength, at getting through the day. Acting "as if", not making a big deal of the day, enjoying family time, is what WE did. We actually spent time together, for D3. My attitude for the day was kindness, and that really helped. But when I was alone, out of sight, I did lose my cool over a few silly things. I let myself feel & deal, then returned to kindness. It a nice day over all, until it was time to go.

00 left some of his packing until the last minute. He had said it all day too, "I'm not done... I'll get to it." Well, after a day of fun & sun & a few drinks, the packing wasn't happening. He wanted to hang out with D3. Then we all also strolled the neighborhood; he wanted to say goodbye to a few people. I mentioned the time and he finally snapped back to reality pretty quick. It was obvious that he was a bit tipsy at this point, so I helped him finish packing. Made him up a snack bag. He was getting emotional, then a bit mad like stomping teenager, not wanting to go to work. He was overwhelmed with the moment & having to travel during this time. Also, he will have to do a 14 day quarantine as soon as he lands, and then goes to work for up to 7 months. So I get him overindulging, as he'll have to go without for the entire season.

We hugged three times. Once while he was stressing out packing I felt he needed a hug & it was received. At the airport, he leaned into me for a goodbye hug, and a second one. He had talked to D3 a few times during the day about him working & she can call him whenever she wants. This is her normal. She is use to him being gone for work. 00 says he doesn't want to work as much but wants to give us a home.

Anyway. We made it through the day. And I'm SO tired right now....zzzzzzzz

~Never Give Up ~
2019
Mar BD
June BD
Dec Aow/xgf
2020
Jan he wants D
Feb he flys2 ow
Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn
Apr he leaves for work until Nov
Oct D FINAL 2020
Living MY Happiest Life Ever