I want a simple life. It’s all I’ve ever wanted really. No drama, no anxiety, no buying things I don’t need, no tying my happiness to a man. I want to be free. I want a small, pretty house with lots of natural light. I want a decent yard with a fence so I can have a dog and a small garden. I want to feel safe so I want to live in a good neighborhood. I want a garage for my car and new hobbies like restoring old furniture. I want to spend my weekends sewing, going to thrift stores, reading a good book or just napping. My friends and I share the same interests so we have quilting parties or we just sit outside talking and laughing.
I’d like to take a few weekend trips with my kids or friends. Nothing big. After my kids have moved out and I have healed I want to have an R with a man who is more of a FWB than the love of my life. He has decent looks, is kind, adores me, wants more but I treat him so well that he decides I’m worth the sacrifice. We are exclusive of course and we have each other. After he leaves one night I just sit and smile remembering the day I couldn’t stop crying. I think to myself wow kml was right. Lol
Now my fears. I won’t be able to afford any of this. I’ll be stuck in a drug infested neighborhood where I will be robbed or killed by a stray bullet. It’s loud with all the parties. Everyone is married and no one likes me. Oh and the only men out there want 30 year olds or sex....with me and 5 other women they have on rotation. I get an STD and die from cervical cancer. The end.
