Not willing to quit

[Turbine]

I am definitely not happy with the court system, lawyers, the judge and how the laws are written. Not vengeful if that is what you are thinking. Something many of us here can probably relate to. I doubt that I could serve on a jury and be impartial.
Part of why I fired my first lawyer was her attitude toward getting me back into our house. Get a dumpster for the items didn't endear her to me either. It doesn't help that how I view all the divorce lawyers, judges and courts as not exactly a shinning example of good. Should everyone be forced to remain married. No... should the government be able to force you to not be married? No.
There are lots of women out there. I'm still comparing them to me asawa, my Mahal.
Still building my vocabulary in Tagalog. My grammar still has a long way to go. I still don't "think" in Tagalog. Thinking in a language is a sign of fluidity and progress in learning. I so want that kind of a breakthrough. I don't know why. Chasing her?
I know that I had a big part in creating this mess. I still am trying to fix it. I need to step back a little. Work on me and trust God.
Take sensible precautions because a risk free life isn't a life.