Thanks May, that’s a big compliment. I still struggle, of course. My primary emotion is still anger but it doesn’t pop up often. Whenever my mind starts following those well-worn emotional paths, I ask myself “Really? We’re gonna go there again? Yeah, yeah, that happened, we know it [censored]. Let’s not waste our time, brain.” It seems to break the loop. My brain is stupid sometimes.
S2 has been in his big boy bed for a couple of weeks now - the mattress is on the floor and it’s working well. He’s also taken to potty training like a champ. My baby isn’t a baby anymore! Every day he amazes me with how much he learns and understands. I bought him a dollhouse as part of his big boy room and it’s fascinating to watch him play. He mimics me when he talks to his dolls, telling them to sit on the toilet and not wee on the floor etc. It makes me smile!
My financial settlement is booked for the first week of May. After that, divorce will just be ticking some boxes on a form in June. Then I’ll be separated from XH in every possible way except by S2. It’s a happy thought, not tinged by sadness or regret at all. I’m proud of my journey over the last 11 months. By the sounds of things, XH is still stuck in a fixed mindset, blaming me for everything, and unable or unwilling to look at himself. I hope he does one day, for S2’s sake.
