Reminds me that he's a sexist, homophobic, racist, judgemental, miserable jerk
Will you PLEASE write this on your bathroom mirror or someplace else where you can see it all the time????? And keep asking yourself WHY you even would want this guy? The answer is - YOU DON'T. You were living with a toxic person and he did you a FAVOR by exiting your life. You DESERVE so much better. You deserve someone who shares your values, and who values YOU. I know the finances and change itself are scary but I'm pretty sure your life will eventually be MUCH BETTER without this guy in it.
(Funny story - the first guy I dated after my divorce I really really liked but he was an avoidant and difficult to engage. Once I realized that I put an index card in the visor mirror of my car that said "He's Just Not That Into You" to remind me every time I started to swoon over him. It worked!)
