It’s not a 180 for you. It’s a 180 you are desperate to prove to your H.
Let it go. Focus on things you do for you, not to impress your H. Especially ones that make you look clingy and pursue . It won’t be attractive to him.
Focus on 180’s you do for you, that involve you and don’t include something he might “see”
Sometimes we need to learn how to put things down and let them go
