Still married couple from Scandinavia Part 2

[BenB]

AS, thank you and interesting question the last one.

I don't know how I would bring it up without looking like I'm insecure and having doubts about it. I'm curious if she has thought about it though.

More has happened since my last post. Saturday evening I was going out to dinner with a friend when during dinner W messaged me again -

Do you want to go and get a burger tomorrow?(our favorite burger food truck which is usually closed on Sunday´s decided to stay open that Sunday)They´re serving the triple cheese burger!

I didn't reply until the next day. didn't have any plans that Sunday but it just feels weird to keep meeting her like this. So I replied this below and I know I say too much as usual but I couldn't help it. Or more like didn't want to.

Me: I'm not interested in friendship with you. I wanted to be supportive since we were worried before the biopsy but we can't keep seeing each other like this forever. Don't you agree?

The moment I sent that I regretted asking that last question.

W: I mean, I understand where you are coming from, it's just you are the person I've known for the longest here and I like hanging out with you. For me, I want to be friends. Not like hang out all the time maybe. I appreciate the support for the maybe cancer thing, it helped a lot So no burger then?

Me: All that means is that we would hang out until one of us meets someone new. Look, I wasn't planning on seeing you again after everything that's happened but the moment you told me about that lump none of that mattered of course. I'm no monster and of course I'll help you in a crisis like this. But no, we can't be friends.

W: Yeah I understand and I see that you are in a better place. Now I feel more like myself too. For months I was in a weird state of panic or sadness or just feeling like I didn't care about anything. I know you are no monster at all. And you will always be one of the closest persons to me because we've known each other for so long. And like I said, thank you for being there in a time like that.

That was yesterday and I haven't responded to that. Is it a bit weird that she keeps mentioning that we have known each other for a long time? Feels like she's talking about an old buddy of hers.