Sandi, I would agree with a lot that you said. However, my W is sincerely remorseful. She did get mad with the FB thing but was able to apologize for being angry about it. She's apologizing numerous times a day, asking how I'm feeling, trying to support me in my process of healing.

She told me more of the A today. Some if it is a little embarrassing but I'm going to throw it out there to continue being open and honest. She said it started off as physical. Basically, he was good and "adventurous" in bed. I asked why she never asked that of me. She said she resented me at that point and that's when she became more attached to him. She wants to be here with me and wants to bring that "adventure" into our lives. That's definitely a gut shot to me to take but her willingness to communicate that speaks a lot to me. I asked her if any part of her misses him or wants to be with him. She adamantly said no.

She told me she's afraid that I will be angry with her forever. I told her it will take time but her willingness to be transparent and communicate will help that process for me and her. She agreed.

Sandi, after reading over your comment about remorse, it gives me more confidence because I do believe she is truly remorseful. Her ability to take full accountability while remaining calm is something I haven't seen in my W for a very long time. I think she is an insecure person and that needs to be worked on for us to have a chance. But I also think she means what she is saying because she is able to truly look at me and say done difficult things for her to say. Talking about sex with the OM is hard for both of us but her ability to be honest and remorseful while saying it must be a good thing.

I know my W. She is truly sorry. I also know I want her home. But for now, she isn't. But I'm going to ask her back during our MC session on Wednesday. I realize it's early, but it's what I want. I've asked her a few times to see her phone and she gave it to me without question. I looked and he's deleted from all social media. I also saw a text between her and her friend where she said she wants me and our family and she wants so blind before to that fact.

There are so many good things happening and although happening fast, she is my W. As long as she continues working on herself and us I can't or won't keep her away.

I'll keep updating. I sincerely appreciate everyone on this board.