Thanks guys for the kind words. I think big part of it was NC and seeing H very infrequently for the past few weeks. It helps me practice detaching and there's no interference from his part to mess with my zen.
Today he came over to watch the kids while I had an appointment. It's our first time seeing him since last Sunday. Of course, the first thing he said to me was asking me when I can meet next week to talk about finances (again). I looked at the calendar and said I'll be pretty busy next week, but I can do next weekend. Before we reached any conclusion, I had to leave so I told him we'll talk about this later. Later when I came back, he was cooking dinner for us. We made small talk about his cooking and I helped him a bit. When he's done, he said he has to leave for his haircut appointment. H didn't bring up meeting next week anymore, so I didn't say anything about it either. When he was leaving, he said to the kids "bye! I gotta go for a haircut, see you in a couple days." The kids were like, "in a couple days??" He said yeah...I've been busy with work....
so this is the new norm for the past few weeks. H is showing up less. but he'll bring us his cooking once or twice a week. sometimes he'd even ask us what we want to eat ahead of time.
he looked sad today. And honestly I feel a little down after seeing him. I also just feel drained by all of this. still no end in sight, and I am both relieved and disappointed that he did not push the issue.
Originally Posted by may22
What have you been doing for yourself recently?
I really slacked off last week, other than pushing/dragging myself to finish off a few freelance cases, I was not doing much and was indulging myself in being unproductive. I'm picking GAL back up this week for sure though. Being disciplined is definitely something I need to work on!!!
