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[CanBird]

~J~ Happy 1 month "Divorse-signed-but-not-filed" Anniversary.. wonder if ow knows.?

Any way...Once again, another ugly mlc display from 00. I was doing my thing & watching D3. I wasn't really paying too much attention to what he was doing. I know his routine by now. If I see him, I go elsewhere. He accused me of following him around. I explained/justified my movements. Let's not forget D3 here. She's a runner. So I'm constantly on the move.

I was mad, but also understand his frustrations during this time. His biggest beef is privacy. (TOO BAD!) "I can't even make a phone call in private." Oh please. Get over yourself! I said something under my breathe as he walked away.

He came back in with a new somthing he bought for the house. Seriuosly, what would the ow think! "The old one is trash; toss it out." I thanked him; it was a surprise. The old one was trashy looking but funtioned fine.

Then, D3 says to him, what I muttered earlier. It was not meant to be repeated of course. Ooops! Oh boy he was mad. What I had muttered was, "maybe you should stay/go to xyz's house." He wants privacy?! His bachlor buddy is within walking distance. I appoligized; never nice to hear a child say whats not meant to be heard. I was mad; I admitted it & confronted him on his earlier rudeness. "It's hard on me too. What should I do? What can I do to give you the space you need? I GET that you need space. But I'm just trying to do my things too. I don't always know where you are. I'll text more if that helps". He did his usual; not admit to being rude. Probably doesn't notice? Then he went on talking about something else.

The rest of the day I did my best to stay clear. Again, D3 is always with me. It's a small house, but we have a spacious backyard & pool. A garage/ mancave & front yard. So we are everywhere, but usually stay clear of the garage, unless we need to go in. It's ALWAYS locked. I knock before I enter. Use my own key. I texted my movements a few times today. He'd usually end up hanging out near us. .. so confusing. I think he felt bad. Good! He should! I kept my focus on my task. I was steaming. Geez. Two days in a row!

I'm finally sticking up for myself a little. I'm sick of tip toeing around him, being nice, going out of my way in my own house for this man who cheated on me, We signed our D papers! YOU didn't complete them! You've left us!, your back & wish you we're in fantasy land with ow. You're planning things with her..ugh..I hope it all blows up in his face.

Wow..I really vented there.

In the evening, as usual, 00 rallies to be Super Dad. He actually encourages I go out, AFTER I told him, "I need a break. Take her. I'm walking somewhere". I did a sunset ride. I was nice. Never long enough. 00 actually asked how it was. I think he'd been drinking..lol... a lot nicer.

After D3 & I had dinner (00 cooked..never eats with us..), he chatted with me about whatever... he was on his way to the mancave and said."Babe...you can just...yada yada yada". BABE? Yes. He called me that. We call D3 that & yes, he calls ow that. I pretended not to notice. Funny.

Time for bed.