Thank you May, for the kind and encouraging words. I have been following your thread from the beginning, I just don’t comment because you are doing so well and your situation has come so far, you def don’t need my advice
Four is an adorable and magical age. I am grateful for how much time I’ve gotten to spend with my daughter, especially lately. Like you, one of the most disturbing parts of divorcing for me is losing time with her. Everyone has different feelings and views on this. My opinion is that it’s just unnatural. A child should live in their home with both their parents. A child and their mother should not be forced to be apart for regular periods of time. That’s my opinion and firm belief in my heart. I hate that this is happening to her, and to me as a mother. It’s easier for some parents than for others and I don’t judge anyone, I’m just not cut out for it.
To be totally honest, I’m struggling a lot at the moment because I just really believed that my situation would end in reconciliation. I truly believed that in my heart, even through some of the hardest times. A lot of people I know thought so. Some people on this board thought so at one point or another. Even H admitted wavering on it at one point. I’m just having a lot of feelings about that, and a really difficult time accepting that I was wrong about that. Because of that, I’m trying so hard to let go, and it’s proving very difficult for me.
