Thank you Scout. I just keep coming back to re read this.
I’m struggling with a lot of sadness and grief and loneliness this week. I’m also struggling with the fact that I’m having so much trouble just letting go. It bothers me that it is this difficult for me. I’m trying to be nice to myself about it, but it does bother me. I read a bunch of the book he was so eager for me to read, I decided that wasn’t a hill to die on for me. It was just divorce with kids 101. No real new info for me at all. Whatever, I think he wanted to feel empowered and like he wasn’t following my lead in regards to coparenting. If that helped him feel that way, no skin off my back.
Hs behavior is giving me emotional whiplash. He keeps saying things like “ I’m so sorry for these hard times”. Just a non apology, no actual ownership or accountability whatsoever. Who even knows what that means, and furthermore why bother? If you want to apologize authentically for something then do it. If not, just don’t. All the more reason I look forward to feeling much more detached.
